Johnny U is a genius. honestly. truly. true bar for bar detonator and a man who truly gives up true feels and honesty in raps. Telling of his story as a Man of Color with its trials and tribulations, #4daFree EP he states "represents freedom from uniform thinking, government, mistreatment/misrepresentation as told from my perspective as a young black male/artist/citizen in these United States. I feel the distinct responsibility to express my thoughts/feelings as a means to illustrate the current events surrounding me and my peers/family/friends etc." Love ya Johnny!!!! Thank you for giving emotion and daily life in the musica <3
First time just doing a show with the drum pad, loop pedal and my vocal pedal. And when I say the nerves were rudeeeeeee lol but I am so excited about these new ventures I'm hitting with electronics. Really feeling like a kid again. well i never knew what it was to feel like a kid...so I guess I'm living my childhood here. now. in the present.
so much to say. 2016 has been the realest year but I am absolutely grateful for the year cause it really forced a lot of us to truly figure ourselves, our visions and approach. the end of the year has been a triggering montage of get your shit together, L.A. And here I am getting my shit together.
A while back, I felt a few lumps on my lower back and was very terrified not knowing what they were. I did the thing of not worry about it saying they would go away and in November while in Toronto for my AGO performance the pain hit me like a motherfucker.
As a full time self employed freelance artist and musician, I have not had the opportunity to secure health insurance (finally on it and should know by end of the year). Being self employed meant I had to get all my receipts, statements and all that jazz together in expense reports, for dolo. (Shout out to my corporate america jobs teaching me how to do that tho and shouts to google docs for templates).
Anywho the other part of this whole health insurance bid for artists who urgently need the care is the wait. Like a sitting duck for the last few weeks and contemplating what these lumps can be. Driving myself crazy on WebMD and shit. I decided that I needed to stop and get some spiritual advice.
I grew up amongst a lot of magical and spiritual women my whole life. I've always believed that what is happening spiritually will manifest itself in the physical. The body is a hub for all the things we store mentally, and emotionally.
As a Women of Color especially I feel my life I have kind of had to block my traumas so that I can move forward. Kinda always felt like I had to push the things that have hurt me to the side and not truly heal for the sake of my work, art, family, lovers and community etc. As women we are so very connected with the nature of the world. The pain became real MRI but once again no health insurance. So I decided to seek spiritual advice.
A good friend of mine, Sun Sun (instagram -@SunSun503) , who actually created the title art work for this piece and is a killer creative, suggested this amazing Spiritual Journey reader, Saera Burns who helped Sun Sun and amazing artist and my boo sister, Ayo LeiLani (@witchprophet) opening some blocks of their own. Love to @88daysoffortune forever and a day.
Skeptical as fuck, for many reasons, It took a minute to hit up Saera. But I did after feeling like I have nothing to lose. Saera lives in Canada and does readings for ppl all over the world remotely. All she asks for is a picture of you. I told her a bit about my lumps and also my wanting to learn more about money. So on Nov 26th, she basically went on a journey in my subconscious.
She sent me a session recording of the journey and list of dietary points, affirmations and even images of things she seen in my journey. All in all what I learned was that my lumps are in fact manifestation of things I haven't fully pulled through and seeds of potential I was holding on to. What I learned from her reading was that I need to learn to trust myself, have compassion for others and myself, maintain a structure and take in more responsibilities, and forgive myself. I cried after listening to the session because she pointed on so much even with times and my family. SHE EVEN SPOKE SPANISH! and I never told her I spoke Spanish. lmao it was awesome and beautiful and what I needed.
Hopefully for any of yall who may be going through something I hope my testimony invites you to Saera's work to help you through blocks that can be so deep rooted.
Here is a link to her website to book your reading : http://www.deepsouljourneys.com/
Heres a FB video I did a few days ago talking about the journey
So few rappers in NY that I truly feel embody NY feels. this guy understands that and sits in all fronts of the sound. he can totally rap some trap shit but give that NY energy. really love this one and shot by my favorite KidzRevil. thank you qu'ality for being a real one.
2016 has been a fuckboy get your shit together year for the fuckboys in all of us. If anything I learned this year is less is more, especially with people and also trusting in my wisdom.
I use to do alot of asking people how they felt about the art and music. But honestly I am finally at reach where none of that matters and its all about how this makes you feel.
So with that being said here is some shit I started to do and live by to help me in this CULTIVATION.
1. Be grateful. for compliments but also know they hold the same weight as a complaint...to me...that's not really much. I am super happy when people love the art and are moved by it but I have learned that the best thing to do is just keep doing and realize as soon as someone said some wack shit about you or your art babies, you can push them to the side. All is love at the end really and if someone can take enough energy to say where you are going wrong, you must be doing something right. TAKE NOTHING PERSONAL! its all love!
2. If something is not going your way at the present moment, work on something else...if thats not working...work on something...if thats not working take a nap or meditate. lmao. ya brain needs to realign and thats okay. the anxiety wont help ya.
3. For everything you want... there is a yes... just not always on your time. Never stop asking, never stop reaching out. Don't be annoying rapper/artist tho. make real connections with people and watch how your integrity aligns with your vision. Learned this from a spiritual reader ill post about soon.
Ok I think thats it. All the pictures were created by the homie Jahmel Reynolds who is an amazing director apart of the amazing film squad The Ren... follow them asap.
and the one piece I'm wearing is from the love of Wue Clothing. follow them too.
Monsta ass illustrator Ash Schmitt made me Daria's cousin from Brooklyn.
Follow him @schmitt.com.au
Buy his Kanye book for me. lol.
Man these guys.
So Ircasim is the main producer on my upcoming album BLAK. and I always was into his twisted sense of boom bap. speaks hella much to my life.
anywho, he got a dope ass set called DARK CHIP SYNDICATE from Philly and I am pretty sure they are about to cause pure mayhem. Ircasim said they have a new project coming out soon too. so best get to knowing them ahora.
Heres their new one "BASEMENT"
AHHH! B.C. has been doing so well yall. thank you for all the support. its been posted on Saint Heron, Cypher League, Afropunk and mad places!
Get it on Spotify Itunes and all the DSPS too! Cop it! https://onerpm.lnk.to/Bc
This year has been super blessed up with doing shows from as big as Brooklyn Museum First Saturdays to touring the east coast.
But some of my favorite shows have been these intimate one off joints that I do with homies were I get to experiment with my new music and new toys like my loop pedal life.
One of these were Alter Egos, curated by the magik lady Yaya Bey, who invited me as a rap guest. I've always found it super easy to rap for crowds of 100's but when its like 10 ppl in a space watching you spazz about gentrification and feminism...it becomes realer.
I met an awesome writer named Brittany Burton there. She was super sweet and said I am inspiring her to get her bars out. I really hope she does and stop playing with the streets! we need more heat!
lol. anyway thanks Brit for the write up. love to Yaya for the space. Shouts to Huff post for the turn up.
New World. Hi.
I am starting this blog for
1) To share this journey of all of me, especially the healing process, physical, mental, spirit|ual. so that as some point when I am at Coachella or the MET Gala or Grammy's or on top of the world, you can reference back to this and "say remember when"
2) To big up the homies I fuck with and that these other blogs might not. (fuck em until they fuck with you, and even then...fuck em but keep a smile). also to introduce da. homeys to my da.homeys.
3) give ya some affirmations and tips to keep ya going. Maybe some other shit that you didn't know.
4) and whatever I wants and stuff.
So here it goes. no. I'm not a blogger. I'm just a rapper, singer when I wanna, poet, creator ass chick that has some shit to say.
So hi. New World. hi.